Witches Never Lie

(no commentary about my French, it's been many months....)

2005-01-02T07:10:40Z

tu m'as aimé
mais c'est fini
aujourd'hui (pour le premiere temps)

et chaque jour
je vais me souvenir
ta voix
tes yeux
ta bouche
et mon coeur
quand je t'ai dit au revoir

parce que j'ai besoin de quelque chose different
je ne peux pas respirer
et penser non plus
c'est tout pour toi
et je veux vivre encore.

ninabrujita @ 2005-01-02T01:24:00

2005-01-02T06:46:10Z

angels dance in your head,
so you know you've gone too far...
your boyfriend left you a note
and your best friend won't answer the phone
devils sing hymns by your bedside
terra est mortuum
if you change the words
they still mean heartbreak
because you can't stop crying
and the wrong men can't stop loving you.
your whole life
men loved you a little too much
and now you can't love enough
quero interere
you drown in his words
it doesn't matter what the language
you drown and he just left a note
so angels dance and
devils sing hymns
and you can't find any prayers.

ninabrujita @ 2004-10-11T00:40:00

2004-10-11T04:49:35Z

boom boom two pulls of the trigger
boom boom there goes my sanity
boom boom i'll take you down with me
boom boom -

there goes the rest of my life.

ninabrujita @ 2004-06-27T17:29:00

2004-06-27T22:04:20Z

Your words lack value.
Everything I am to you,
it's nothing of substance.

He's writing my history on the wall,
I say Boy you got lots to learn.
He smiles and just whispers, I won't be here
much longer.
You sit across the apartment,
wearing another promise.

.....................

ninabrujita @ 2004-06-05T00:28:00

2004-06-05T04:51:47Z

I'm not sure I can beat it this time.
demons fight over my heart
and I'm looking for just one more angel.

you wait for me all night
but I can't burden you with this again.
I'm beating away monsters in my mind
and the leaves are turning black.
black leaves aren't in season,
so they're not even trees at all.

this is not like the time before.
and you walk right by me -
but even my own shadow ceases to exist.
I try to scream but fear cuts my voice.

now exists a shell that embodies hatred -
anger, lies, and resentment.
a mind slowly starting to lose strength
and turning to an angle
it's never seen before.

ninabrujita @ 2004-01-31T05:33:00

2004-01-31T10:35:42Z

she enshrouds herself -
a glass barrier that
trembles when she speaks.
he touches her and the glass breaks
(but just for a moment).
just this time - her heart may become
everything she saw in him.
just for a moment, she may be
confident. she could be whole
for a few seconds of this day
in a life that never stops dragging on.

there is fiction in the space between you and me.......

2004-01-31T08:19:07Z

I know I sound just like my father. Is it wrong for me to wonder - is all that I say what I feel or is it everything he told me disguised as the voice of a girl who lives her entire life as if it's already been lived?
I know I look just like my mother. It just doesn’t feel right that I am living to be everything she meant to be.
I know my brother was supposed to be the one to survive, not me. I live trying to make up for his death - I play this game ’til there’s nothing left.
My words are that of my father; my eyes belong to my mother; and my guilt I earned from surviving my brother. Fiction levels in my blood are high and it pumps through me. I breathe in the consequences of being born in fiction. My memories echo fiction and my family whispers fiction. I am the outcome of everything that is not real. My blood is far too strong; my fiction is my disease.

never look back at all the damage we have done now to each other.....

2004-01-10T23:13:59Z

your emotions are hard to deny
but to be honest
so are mine
but you tell me nothing.
you play your guitar
sitting on the brick wall
that divides our town
and I always had dreams
of you teaching me to play
at 4am with your father banging on
the wall
on no the devil's got a hold of your heart
so I never hear your guitar
anymore.

(only when I sleep)

ninabrujita @ 2003-12-30T21:54:00

2003-12-31T02:54:44Z

je peux changer pour toi
je peux changer tout ca
ton amour - c'est rien
mais mon amour pour toi
c'est tout ma vie
si je change pour toi
vas-tu changer ton amour pour moi?

(I know my French sucks. But that's ok... it's the thought that counts)

there's reason to believe maybe this year will be better than the last...

2003-11-29T00:55:55Z

who are you to say
in the shallow depths
of your voice
that your place is
my heart when
your place is
never
good
enough?

ninabrujita @ 2003-10-14T00:30:00

2003-10-14T04:30:55Z

even in the dark
light can chase you.
blood trickles like
the voice you hear -
it takes just a moment.

a moment for your heart
to fly into fear -
a moment for it to
come pouncing back.
(that night sleeps beneath your skin
waiting to make its appearance)

Don't believe me, don't you dare believe me...

2003-10-08T04:24:31Z

if there's a stain in my heart
it's from the ones before you
if you whisper your intentions
in my ear - I think it's real
because I've never felt it before.

if you notice the scar on my thigh
it's because others have hurt me before
and I'll hurt you
if you give me another bruise.

don't tell me how much you want me
and how you want me
my heart skips a beat and
my blood starts to jump

if you see me back away
when you go to touch me
it's not that I don't want you
it's just - - - how much do you want me?

ninabrujita @ 2003-10-01T23:07:00

2003-10-02T03:11:26Z

rest peacefully, my dear
for love does not touch me
it does not move me

a girl standing in
the bright lights of Vegas
her shadow hiding in
the uncertainty of
the moon the lights
glisten in her eyes
and RED is the reflection.
she knows her target
and her targets soul
will never be touched
by love again after
loving her.

blue are the feelings that live inside me....

2003-09-29T02:23:08Z

in my head you whisper all the time
it's my fault and
you always knew
i'm wrong in everything i do

the red and blue i see the same
as that day
red for hot
and blue for cold
get it right darling
because you'll see it again
over and over again
in your head
i'll whisper
every time you see the red and blue
red for hot
and blue for cold

ninabrujita @ 2003-09-15T00:00:00

2003-09-15T04:01:37Z

memories of you start to fade
and you seem further and further away.

Je ne peux pas vivre sans toi....

2003-08-23T04:20:31Z

One of the more bizarre things I've written....

Conscious breathing
I lie to you.
J’ai peur.
C’est vrai, ton amour?

Fading to black,
you will never see me
in this light again.
So close your eyes and take
a photograph.

C’est dommage.
Our love fell through.
But Rome
stood standing.

ninabrujita @ 2003-08-22T21:25:00

2003-08-23T01:33:01Z

They can't
Erase you
Don't let them
Break you.

The flower
that grows in
the garden of
vengence and anger
looks as pretty
and knows how to
put up a fight.

ninabrujita @ 2003-08-21T00:05:00

2003-08-21T04:06:35Z

in I breathe
and out I love
you
are nowhere to be found
but I am still
w r a p p e d around you
intertwined
but you have already
looked to the skies
and said goodbye
without another glance.

ninabrujita @ 2003-08-16T12:11:00

2003-08-16T16:12:27Z

what she had
was not enough to bid
she left the lights on
as her lies hid.

ninabrujita @ 2003-07-15T22:30:00

2003-07-16T02:35:39Z

every room in every station everyone is ready and they look to us you look at me I`ve never seen kansas before....
I can not follow you tonight
for our lie has
become miniscule
and your eyes are
elsewhere

ninabrujita @ 2003-07-15T22:27:00

2003-07-16T02:31:41Z

And every chance you get
you break it
we scratch the truth
in the margins
you love me for
everything that leaves you to desire
but we`re only sleepless
til the sun goes down
we top walking once we get there
the pages are yellowing
and wrinkled
and the writing in the margins
is clear this time
this is your las chance
and we`re no longer sleepless.

ninabrujita @ 2003-07-15T22:22:00

2003-07-16T02:27:39Z

I saw you the other day
But I have yet to see myself
the reflection in the window
is the girl you left behind
that was never me.
For had you known me
my photograph would have never
fallen between your fingers
into the fire.

et c`etait moi que tu as vu.

2003-07-14T02:46:27Z

Virginia In Wonderland

Every word you say
Moves me with its power
But does that energy
Come from your love
Or your power of
Deception

And they knew me
As Virginia
The one who believed
Almost anything
And they knew me
As the girl
In the street lights
Waiting for her ride
Hour after hour
Her father never came

Every word he said
Wrapped around me
In the way
They appeared genuine
And how they smelled so sweet
But they disappeared in the shadows
Of the street lights

And they knew me
As Virginia
The one entangled
In the sweet vines
Of every lie
And wrapped herself
In that chain
But the sweet
Never remained.

Everything she said
Bound me to her
Sweet like honey
She brought me in
And As I Came CLOSER
She TOOK every
part of me
that remained
after the street lights
and vines made of lies
and every powerful deceiver
who fucked me
in his bed.

Do you know me as Virginia
Or the girl you knew
How to abuse
And who you
Always left behind?

ninabrujita @ 2003-07-13T22:39:00

2003-07-14T02:42:28Z

Sleepless in Betrayel

When it`s just past midnight
everybody who lies awake
crying
starts to scream.
And they are the only ones
who can hear the shrills like sirens
interrupting their train of anxious thought.
their minds about to skip off
the endless tracks.
They know that feeling
of the grass turning red and
they remember what it`s like
to find out it was all was a lie and
all they can do
is scream -
late at night.
When no one can hear them but the others who taste betrayel.
And they scream all the words they`ve heard –
all the lies they`ve been told.
And perhaps.
Just maybe
a desperation
to run
with the strength they steal
and the energy of the pain they leave behind
may just bring them beyond
every sleepless night.

ninabrujita @ 2003-07-09T22:15:00

2003-07-10T02:22:18Z

no one sleeps and
no one breathes
for every time
the angels lie
we see where we went wrong
and everything is wrong
but how could you be
so wrong for me
and yet you`re always
right there
when I close my eyes.